_a rose petal_

he loves me ..he loves me not??
a game of possibilities...
true or not..
i don't know..

it's so frustrating
to pick the last rose petal
with a 'he loves me not'
but i can do nothin..

all i understand is that the person i love
doesn't love me..
for millions of reasons i don't know
i can't rationalize. .

i just lost my self and had hard time finding it back...
the broken pieces were not easy to pick up...
broken heart..
dissected brain..
bleeding vessels...

who can fix it and bring me back to life??